Emotion analytics
Weather: sunny and warm Last nights sleep: midnight - 8 am Breakfast: waffle and tea
Emotional report: overwhelmed
Today I calculated that I lose just over $200 each month to credit card debt. My monthly income of $700 barely covers transport and communication, which are the only bills I pay thanks to my family’s support. I’m frayed at the edges and in a hole.
My music was cut from a film at the last minute. The director of the second film cut my appearance. My cousin is in the hospital after breaking his neck. My best friend wants me to move to LA but I’m just geting started with a trio here in the Bay Area. All the pets around the house are in thir autulm years. I didn’t recive a second interview for a job I realy wanted. My sister will gratuate from college soon and has ample savings. My high school friends were signed to Verve. I broke off a long distance relationship becase we were only useing eachother for sex.
These are all oportunites. The music was cut from this film, but my relationship with the director will continue, may lead to other oportunites to perform. The second film sounded like a good oportuniy at first untill I met the director and got a very negative feeling from her, so the universe decided that one for me. My cousin’s condition constantly reminds me to wiggle my toes when I’m feeling down. Moving to LA is a goal, the decision to do so has been made, now I must keep the plan rolling. Do I spend my time educating myself, or get a second minimum wage job as earn money for the move? I learned from the job interview, even though I didn’t get the job. I will choose to be happy for my sister, and for my high school friends with a recording contract. I will choose to let that relationship pass and be open to a new one.
Writing helps. Comments?
